the most vulnerable part of me...

i don’t want to ever let myself go..i wish to capture the best image people have of me and somehow hold on to it forever because i’m vain and because i’m at that awkward level of attractiveness where people can decide if I’m cute or not...

i would like to go back to the first person who touched me in a loving way and thank him/her kindly while forgetting all the ones who left me feeling cold..why do we always remember the ones who hurt us the most and seem to blank out on the ones who could actually love us??

i want to go back to the time when i had everything in control and didn't feel so much like the "other"..your confidence is supposed to grow as you get older..not diminish..something must be broken here....