if I have a boy friend...

 there’ll be so many things I want to do.....

1. couple-ring is basic
2. going on a picnic with him
3. the piggy back ride
4. go to late night movies with him
5. hold a surprise event for him
6. go to amusement parks with him
7. kissing him in the street
8. watching sunrise and sunset with him
9. go travel backpakers around the world with him

 the thought of it makes my heart flutter...
 i’m eagerly looking forward to such named days.....

talking to myself... part 4

hey..are you falling asleep???

no..i'm falling apart...

...am i??? -_-

so..td g keje mcm biase..doing closing shift....lately terasa store jd mcm busy sket...lg2 dgn sbux card bagai...da mcm2 card ade skang..kadang2 smpai pening nk swipe...
haaaaa......
one of my regular tegur me td...
'da lame xnmpak u...cuti eyh???'
me....
'i ade je keje hari2..maybe time u dtg i break or da blek kot....'
then dia...
'why u look so tired?'
''tak sihat ke???'
'tak cukup rest eyh???'
and i was like...errr...blurr...
'..is it??..mne ade...i ok je..hahaa...'
and dia...
'eyh..jgn tipu laa...u punye muka nampak lain....'
'selalu i dtg nmpak u hepy2..energetic...tp hari nie u nampak pucat je...'
ok...tataw nk reply ape....
'errmmm...lately i xbrape sihat laa...thats why laa kot i pucat...hahaa...'
ketawa fake....
'u rest laa..amik cuti...pegi clinic check up...jgn asyik keje je...nnt kalau u sakit...susah...'
aku tersengeh...
'ok..i will...thanks...'
the conversation go on bla..bla..bla...
ok..masuk nie je da bape kali customer tegur aku nampak pale n restless...
 acane nk buat nie???
by the way....thanks for concern bout me...terharu ok!
-_-'
tp mmg btol pn lately aku xbape sihat sgt...demam flu on off on off je...lg dgn dlm pale otak nie byk sgt benda di pikirkn....
maybe i should take a break and rest more....

blank space

it isn't easy to fill up blank space.....
you'll have to decide what's the best for you..but...sometimes what you want, do or decide may not be the best for you..cos reality bites!
and sometimes thinking back and forth too may not be good  for you...then you become indecisive and on the fence...
it's how you holding deep inside......

holes inside

sometimes

fate and your dreams can collide

when all that you've tried

leaves nothing but holes inside

but everthing will be ok

i know that it's so easy to say

but the pain inside will fade

if you hold tight 

shadows will be lost in the light

p/s : aja! aja! fighting! :)